A
Year Ago in 2013, At the beginning of my senior year of high school
all my hair fell out. My mom tried to save my hair but it kept fusing
together like one whole dread lock .My mom kept combing through it ,
we tried shampoos and conditioners, to doctor visits, and nothing was
telling or helping find a way to what is happening . It just kept
fusing back together. I never cried when my hair was falling out
because I knew that would not make anything better. As much as I
wanted to cry no tears were coming out. My hair kept falling out
every second or either fusing together. I just wanted to know what
was going on with my long beautiful hair . After all my moms worries, My mom final scheduled an a appointment to the dermatologist
in are area. We found out In January of 2014 that I was
diagnosed with Alopecia Universal. It is an auto immune disease, which
means my immune system is over active and rejects my hair all over my
body and thinks my hair is a harm to my body. I am not sick, I am
perfectly healthy; I just have no control of this disease .There is
no cure or no actually proof of the cause that triggers Alopecia. Any
one from their race or age can get Alopecia. After all that
struggling to save at least some of my hair; it was to late, my
mom said "Baby you have to shave all your hair off I’m sorry
". With no hesitation, I putting on a brave face so I would not have to show my mom how much it I was scared because I thought the worst of what was happening to me! The next day, my dad drove me to the salon , I
walked in and the look my hair dresser had on her face made my heart
sink. I sat in the chair, closed my eyes, and heard the buzz cutter.
The next thing I knew I saw myself in the mirror but I put my scarf
on and my dad drove me home.... I walked in my house and went to the
dinning room where my mom was, my mom said,” So how you feel?” I
said, “Fine”. I went to the bathroom and saw myself in the mirror walked back out of the bathroom and said "I'm not fine and broke down crying to the floor crying my heart out. My parents tried to comfort me but they could not help but cry to, I hated God so much like what have I've done to deserve this out of all the people in the
world, why me? I was so scared to go to school because I knew if I put
on my scarf people would ask why I have it on! I wore a scarf to hide my head because everyone knew me with my long light
brown hair so I hide so nobody would tease me or ask questions
,everybody was so confused why I was wearing a scarf. I thought
no one would see me the same until one day I said I'm tired of
wearing this dumb scarf . So I took it off and luckily for me I have
the best support system ever.
I hated God so much because I could not
understand his purpose of giving me this disease but then I started
to realize that he wanted me to walk in some else's Footstep's because
when I had hair I would always laughing at the girl who was
titled: Bald headed,ugly because they did not have long hair; I hated short hair . I always put myself
before everyone else, and had a lot of friends. When people would
compliment me I would respond to them with a cocky remark because I knew I was beautiful. I knew
loosing my hair was for the best , to see how it feels to be in
another girl footsteps . God just wanted me to show my natural beauty and say hair was not the
key of making me beautiful. My eyes ,my smile , my laugh, my style ,my confidence and how to treat others is important and that is the key of
beauty. God did not give me a disease that could kill me; he just
gave something that could give me a Punch in the face for a reality
check. I was beautiful with hair and even without it I'm still
beautiful! God blessed me with a chance to make a mark on society
saying about how woman’s appearance should look a certain way because that is all
you hear in society today! You are not beautiful just because you don't have the certain length of hair or having no hair makes you ugly and
that just shows what world we live in . God gave me Alopecia because
he knows I can take the fight! I'm strong , beautiful, and I'm proud of me and how I look!
